Hypochondriacs Not So Anonymous

For about two weeks i've been having stabbing pain in my lower right back. No knots, no reason I can see for why that area would be hurting more than my entire back usually hurts. I've also had problems turning my head to the right to look at things without having a cramp or a muscle spasm. again, no cause I can think for this pain.

I've had migraines all my life, they've gotten worse since we moved into this new house. I end up with headaches daily, some go full force into a migraine. Usually i start off with a dull stuffy ache. it grows and spreads, my face always hurts. by the end of the day i just want to flatten my hand with a hammer to distract myself from the pain in my head.

i had two nosebleeds today. i don't usually get nosebleeds. i know i have a problem with anemia cause i always have, even before i went vegetarian.

i cough uncontrollably when my mom smokes around me but she won't stop smoking in the car when we go places.

i'm tired all the time whether i get 30 minutes of sleep or 16 hours of sleep. i wake up every few hours and cant fall back for what seems like forever.

i've had to force myself to eat for the past 4 days. i'll have a few pieces of fruit and a salad during the entire day. and have to force that down. i'm just not hungry at all. or if i am, by the time the food is in front of me i feel queasy and don't want it anymore.

i think i need to go to a doctor. but probably won't. whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

or weaker and then eventually something else kills you.

like a tiger.

or a shark.

or a gun.

or me.